you run away to something different. You run away from something familiar. And you seek the change through that that's new. You find yourself dumbstruck ... Speechless ... That's not the change i wanted. That's not a change at all. You are who you are. Your flaws are your flaws. Your weaknesses are also there. None of them will go away. You just learn how to deal with them. Get around them so they seize to be those big obstacles on your so called path. U can't change people, or the fact that most of them are selfish scum. You can't change life. You just learn how to deal with it.
There's no such thing as a strong person, there's the smart and wise who conceal the weakness, or manipulate it to their advantage.
I still don't get it. But i know one day i will ... I just hope i do learn from repeating my mistakes. Yeah! I'm that stupid.