WHAT/WHY/HOW

i was setting off to write a post that's deep ... structured and had lots of thoughts and concepts that i started to find interesting ... and i DID put it into order this time ... but then i erased it all because i can sum it up in just this line.

Life seams to work hard on letting you lose yourself, conscience, and all the things that prevent you from being called an animal ... and it does it in the strangest of ways and in even more stranger timings that don't make sense... i just hate feeling tested and under the microscope most of the time ... especially that it feels that i'm being animalized a little bit more with each new experience i go through in this life ...

oh well ... i don't know what/why/how to think or react anymore