Sunday, September 28, 2008

الحمد لله

Yesterday was one of the most emotional/action-filled days i've ever had in my life. On a whole lot of levels, and all i can say is الحمد لله

I usually am one of the people who fail to look at the bright side in tragedies or bad incidents but in yesterday's case i'm thankful. Thankful my friends are ok, thankful for having such friends, and thankful for the thing we have together... i don't think i could've had it if i had a brother my age.

On other levels, i think i'm finally coming into peace with certain issues in my life finally ... i hope all stay that way.

الحمد لله

Friday, September 26, 2008

Trick Question

howa sha3b masr el nedeef ba2a kollo shamem ree7a we7sha leh??

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

An Actual Conversation I Had Today

i dunno why i'm posting this ... i can't seam to even be surprised by it but this is an actual conversation that happened with me and one of my best buddies today

Him: Kov, Sa7eb!!!
me: huh?
Him: You need a girl in your life!
me: Is that true!
Him: I'm not kidding, ana 7assak keda ba2eet 3alatool ma7'noo2.
me: that's not only because of loneliness but it's about a shitload of things going wrong in my life, and you know that.
Him: still, you need a girl. With all the shit that's going on, you need something good to make you happy.
me: So it's like a piece of merchandise i buy from a supermarket or something?
Him: No, but you're capable of hooking up!!
me: So you want me to hook up with someone just to make me feel better?
Him: w eh ya3ny?
me: i'm not really approving of the concept of hooking up just for the heck of it ... it just doesn't feel right.
Him: leeh manta el tabee3y betsa7eb
me: 7abeeby, ana 3omry masa7ebt unless i felt something serious, or had a serious intention about it ... i know that's hard for you to believe
Him: ok fine, but it's not like you're gonna be fooling somebody, if it's clear for both of you that you're just making each other feel better w betsattefo ba3d on the short term then it's ok ...
me: huh?!
Him: ok fine, i mean even if you're just aiming at something serious. Keep your eyes open for it
me: who said my eyes are closed? It's not like i'm not willing. I just can't find a suitable person ... plus maba2aash feyya dmaa3' wala taaqa lel ta7weer wel tazbeet wel araf da uslan
Him: Sa7eb!!
me: !!!

Thing is ... that's not the first time one of my friends brings that subject up in the same exact way ... which makes me wonder, what the hell is the impression i'm giving out??!

Monday, September 22, 2008

Status Update

Kov is currently working to convert one of his favorite hobbies to something serious :)

oh and he suffers from extreme hypo tension everyday starting 9:30pm :/

wish me enough luck to make you guys read good news pretty soon :)

Friday, September 19, 2008

Dear Nickie

I love you, and i love you with all my heart. I'm grateful for you beyond imagination. I'm thanking you for giving me the first genuine feeling of joy since as far as i can remember. and i'm also thanking everyone who helped me get it, especially monmon :)

- Metallica's new album sucks ... again
- I'm taking a break from taking new pics and trying to organize the shitload i already have so that i would come up with a good collection suitable for anything, and to analyze everything so that i could take it to the next level
- I'm contemplating buying one of those swivel flashs
- I need Ramadan to end 3ashan a treat ka3boora to a major fixup
- I need to go Diving, hopefully by mid-October
- I'm both anxious and relieved at the same time
- I miss my late night drive with the top down
- I miss late night conversations about nothing
- I need to witness a total solar eclipse before i die!!
- I am addicted to minty SevenUp ... and i make my own now :)
- I'm still looking for conc cherry syrup to make my own cherry coke too :P

Still listening to Echoplex

Thursday, September 18, 2008

On the irony of being human

Sometimes i'm just truck by the endless stupidity of human thought. Especially when it comes to justifying conflicts and actions we take towards other people. Somehow, both sides are never at fault, and when they are and willing to admit, it's always also the other person's fault for putting themselves in that situation in the first place.

Like you can break someone's heart, you wouldn't consider yourself at fault, and when it comes to hit you that you might have done something wrong, then it's also the other person's fault cause their heart is so breakable!!!

interesting ....

Disclaimer: This is not my soul opinion, but you have no idea how many people agreed to this idea throughout my conversation over the past few days .... i'm ....errr... intrigued?

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Today i finally slept!
i finished my morning job so i can now sleep at night again :)
at least for now!

Monday, September 15, 2008

Death Magnetic??

So Metallica have made yet another album, "Death Magnetic", as i've discovered. And of course as of all the new albums i've heard this year by practically everyone, the first impression sucks ... but i'll postpone the review till it sinks in further.

the question is, though, judging by Hetfield's ways of vocaling this album as well as in the previous album "St. Anger"; does he plan on switching to rap or something??

man u'd better get back to SINGING, or at least look it up in the dictionary!

The Sad and Worrying Truth

ok i was actually feeling like crap reading this ... but only because it's painfully true.
I'm not usually the one to discuss politics here or publicly, but seriously where the hell is this country going??

please read this

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Final Approach

This is to commemorate a year from taking one of the biggest leaps i took in my life ...

hope i land sometime soon

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Dear SI

Taking off the mask of the stronger you isn't necessarily "URGH" material... i remember someone once calling it brave and honest... people should practice what they preach more....

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Dear AT

we all learn sooner or later that some things are just not worth it no matter what status they used to hold in our lives ... we should all start searching for greener pastures to graze :)

Monday, September 8, 2008


Today i learnt that we egyptians started using abbreviations instead of language ... MM means Mega Mozza for instance ... i found that extremely hilarious... anyways digging deep into the matter i came up with an abbreviation of my own ...

POSH ... standing for 'Piece Of SHit' :D

have a non poshy night :)

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Get Tacky with me

So Kov has done za cool ass move of putting a muse-ic track on hiz baydje


seriously i can just never get enough of this track ... for almost 5 freakin' years and i just still can't get enough ... can i even call it an epic track??

alright i'm gonna stop now :)
Caring for/about strangers is a really weird thing

not a bad kind of weird, it's just that i'm not that used to it ... and lately it's been happening alot.

I just hope i don't overdo it like everything else

Good morning to you all,

and hope your day is lovely :)

Friday, September 5, 2008

Bomb voyage indeed

So i've been working my ass off this past week ... whether or not i'm fasting ... no matter how tired i may get ... i just can't quit ... and i can't refuse anything i find to do ... no matter what it is ... no matter how shitty the pay might be (like my night job now) ... i thought i was becoming a serious workaholic ... but today i assured myself that this is not the case.
I'm avoiding having my own space ... because i don't want to be left to think!

Today i woke up, and once i returned back from prayer, i collapsed. My body is refusing engaging in any kind of activity. So i was left alone in bed ... and then this stupid brain started working.

Trying to make sense out of current situations failed, creating huge amounts of resentment .... then it turned to remembering ... how come i don't have a single good memory with you that you just didn't spoil? how come we don't even have a decent picture together?? seriously how come i can't think of a single thing without feeling like my stomach is gonna jump out of me??

i need it to stop ... because i don't wanna resent things more than i do ... and it's not really for your sake, it's for me. I'm sick of negative feelings ... and you provide me with nothing but.

It's time to rewind ... obviously this past period was a hige mistake ... i tried ... but you gave me no other choice ...

thanks for being the usual BH and making the world make sense again ...

here's to all the believers in "change"

Feeling like: I really wanna throw up (with nothing in my stomach)
Listening to: Nine Inch Nails' Ghosts instrumental collection

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

It's called a Changeover.

The movie goes on

and nobody in the audience has any idea...

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Ramadan Snippets 2

Has anyone noticed that this is the second year we are worried about fasting in the heat? and has anyone noticed how in both this year and last year there was a great heat wave going on that was broken right on the first day of Ramadan?

Sobhan Allah

i remember this just because i had the same exact thought last year ... and it's happening again :)

despite the great weather however, i'm still incapable of enjoying it because of my blood pressure sinking to record lows :( ... i really wanna go do some photography in the time of Iftar while the whole city's at home and with no one in the street ... i miss my camera

Exactly the Same

Trent Reznor started one of his best tracks saying
" I believe I can see the future , as i repeat the same routine"
and that's exactly what's going on.

I just hate it when i'm right, and whenever it happens that i can forsee things i just wish over and over that i might be wrong. but apparently i'm too experienced when it comes to you that my wish is never granted.

So the thing i'm left to do is just do what i 'should' 3ashan mayeb2ash 3alayya 7aaga ... and for me to be in peace with myself knowing that i did all i could ... even if i didn't have to do anything in the first place ... bass yeb2a esmy 3amalt 7aga ...

so apparently it's coming down again ... in the same old way ... and obviously the same old results ...

nefsy ashtem bass mesh 3aref a2ol eh ... it's not really worth it ...

Song of the day is once again: Nine Inch Nails' Every Day is exactly the Same

"Can't Remember how this got started ... oh ... but i can tell you ... exactly ... how it will end ... " ~ Trent Reznor

Monday, September 1, 2008


  • Every 1st of Ramadan i suffer from extremely low blood pressure. This year it started the moment i woke up not in the afternoon as it usually does
  • My car broke down ... again
  • I work day and night now (which i don't know is good or bad)
  • Drivers are exceeding my expectations this year
  • WHAT THE HELL DOES إياحة mean?? then again what did وحوي mean??
  • I'm still not watching TV :)