I DON"T BELIEVE YOU!!

denial

He writes,
his breathing's heavy
his eyes feel puffy
it's like he's been crying for hours
the only difference is he hasn't even shed one tear
he's been waking up with this feeling for quite some time now
he grows impatience with what he's writing
he moves back a little and takes a look at all the gibberish on his page and thinks:



"this can't be me ... "

Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel ...










... is just a freight train coming your way!



~ Metallica

More On the New License Plates

So I was joining a close friend of mine on getting his new car licensed (mabrook yaad). And we actually had to pay our way out of getting the plates being distributed that day.

After all, i don't think anyone would want to have his rear tagged with those 3 letters for life!





My Apologies to all the hafa2aat roaming the streets of Cairo :)




oh and my friend managed to finally get a ي ف أ so congratulations dude on escaping being a big wine-red hafa2 :)

My Own Summer

Hey You
Big Star
Tell Me When It's Over

Cause I'm Through
When the 2
Hits the 6
And it's summer

Come Cloud
Shove
The Sun
Aside

The Shade
Is The Tool
The Device
The Savior

See i Try
To Look Up
To The Sky
But My Eyes Burn

Come Cloud
Shove
The Sun
Aside

There's no crowds in the Streets
And No Sun
In My Own Summer

Come Cloud
Shove
The Sun
Aside



~ Deftones ~ My Own Summer

OK, my discomfort is reaching hazardous levels!

and it's still getting even more cold and distant for my liking.

and i'm sick of trying to light this bonfire on my own.

in fact i don't think i should even try anymore.

over'n'out

Freezing!

I feel like i'm back in the Ice Age again. All the cold, and distance. And i just can't stand it. I'm trying to ignore it but it just keeps making me feel like $hit!!

Am i just trying too hard? But i don't wanna try any less? then why the fuck do i have to be made to feel stupid for even considering the thought of trying?!!

And again, i don't feel like explaining myself about it because i've done that like a kazillion times before. And i'm pretty damn sure i won't be understood so i'll be back to my dark square one again.

Maybe i'm blowing this way out of proportion. JUST MAYBE!!!!!!

i hope i am

3addy ya lelia

kov is currently letting every day just pass! 3ayez a7'las men omm el fatra dy ba2a.
I gave up on job applications since noone's obviously hiring anyone with my current status of geish! so i'm spending time doing photography!
I think it's about time to announce another diving course... i need to get wet fe3lan!

yulla wish me luck!

mesh talbaaha!

• I don't feel like reading much ,... my reader unread posts count is going insane!
• I don't really feel like going down to the street today ... i know i'll eventually have to since i promised my sis i'll take her car to the mechanics (ya3ny lamma anzel anzel atshall 3and el mechanic)...
  
• i dunno maybe i don't feel like exerting any effort in anything
• i don't wanna lose my sparks cause i'm starting to feel like they're useless and unnecessary ...
• and don't u frickin dare call it depression!
  

A Question to the World?!

and it's rhetorical if you hadn't already noticed:

What is it that Saddam Hussein or Adolf Hitler were accused of doing that Israel is not currently carrying out?? Is there another difference in the situation other than the consent of the world?

sometimes it just sucks to feel some things matter to you more than to people that should share the care

Times Like These

It's in times and hard situations like today and especially in the reactions i get that i feel inclined to doubt myself.

Dear dad and everyone, I didn't do anything wrong. The fact that I was trying to be appreciative of others and that I was trying to exceed doing elly 3alayya and just following my gut feeling on what i feel is right doesn't mean i'm admitting to any error.

I'm sorry if this jungle we live in doesn't count or appreciate or even finds it hard to imagine that someone might be doing something nice towards them out of just plain generosity.

And i'm sorry but i'm really finding it difficult to do someone else's work anymore ...

Soon i'll be all mine!

Soon ...



thank you me dear blog ... u've always been my ranting place when i couldn't rant elsewhere!

On Overdoing!

A wise person once advised me something that i since couldn't do. he told me not to overdo things no matter how excited i am about them, and no matter how good it feels. For a while later it will change into something undesirable.

In Dolphin or Seal training, they give the animals little fishies as rewards for the nice tricks they do, or in short, for giving the trainer what he wants. However, the trainer is always careful not to just lovingly give too much fish or the dolphin would just get used to getting food and seize to give the guy what he wants. or in other cases, (with a better dolphin) the dolphin would just repeat the same trick over and over again cause that's what gets him fish, so the trainer and the audience seize to be amazed, and the show gets boring.



On another Issue, Sara tagged me to post a picture from the 4th folder on the 4th shelf ... eventually it turned out to be THIS!!!
Ladies and gents, i give you my brother's turtle:D

good bye 2008, welcome 2009

on contrary to most people, and despite how stressed out i seamed to be this last year. But i actually believe 2008 was a great year for me. It started like shit but overall, i think it went great in terms of fruitfulness.
Lets take this one thing at a time.
For most of 2008 i was an emotional mess. I was fresh out of a really messy relationship with the love of my life, i even started another blog to just bitch at the whole thing, did and redid some stupid things to convince myself i'm over it but eventually i wasn't. And it all came together and together we figured out a way to work things out. And we've been happy together for over 3 months now with almost none me the problems of the past... And for that, i'm thankful!

I changed my phone in 2008. Which is an epic thing! I mean this is my third phone ever can you imagine that? And i blog from it too :) (e7das)

I managed to take my photography one step further and i even got a new camera i always wanted :)

I graduated! And i got an A on my grad project! And it was only me and one more colleague taking care of everything!

I took my diving a step forward and I'm now a PADI Open Water SCUBA Instructor, and have a freelance job inwhich i combine a hobby and passion of mine :)

My sister got married!

My dad moved out of town!

and Ka3boora got a new heart!

I also happened to meet some really interesting and nice new people in 2008, I can't think of single acquaintance or friendship that i've made that year that wasn't really interesting ... so that also makes me glad.

So 2008, good bye and thank you for leaving me with no regrets


my God it was such a full year :) but i think i'm happy although i'm scared of 2009! mesh talbaaha geesh 7'ales ya masr!


anyways, my plans for 2009 would be:
-keep my relationship and hopefully take it on to a whole new level.

- avoid geesh

- have a stable job and start working on settling down (see the first point)

- do something to showcase my photography work and stop being such a pu$$y about it

- manage my time and learn to plan things right

- improve my relationship with my dad

- improve the religious aspects of my life

- become a millionaire!! (ok i think i should stop writing now :))



Happy New Year everybody

may it be full of love and appreciated accomplishments