all apologies?

ever felt like sometimes when u work so hard to get an apology, it just feels useless when u get finally get it??
does that mean i shouldn't have tried to initiate anything to clarify things or make them better? but then i got what i 'wanted' and things got clarified and i got an apology... then why the hell don't i feel it?? and why the hell do i still feel like shit??

Recycle Your Rubbish

so my brother is an Animal Planet addict, which is great cause it's much better than today's cartoon characters whose heroic acts constitute nothing but playing cards where monsters come out ...
anyway, so slowly i'm becoming an addict too ... but my true favorite thing about the channel are their ads about protecting the environment for the animals' sake. "Animals own the planet" as they say :)

my favorite of these ads is right here ... enjoy

the number you're calling is out of reach. YAAAAAAAAY!!!!!

Has anyone ever tried calling an Etisalat number that's switched off or out of reach??! well if you haven't then you should. I think they have the happiest lady ever talking in their recorded message. elly howwa nzaam YUPEEE!!! the number u're calling is out of reach! let's celebrate!!! otlobna 3ala 09007400 w matestannaaash!!!
begadd mesh msadda2ha ...

3alam mostafezzza

this might seem trivial to a few but ... i've been nicotine free for 48 hours now ... which is an accomplishment i haven't been able to achieve for 2 years :$ ... and today included long driving kamaan :)

anyways ... let's see how long i'll last this time ...

good luck dear me

فأنا مكاتل مكاتل مكاتل

so i was initially trying to write this whole post in arabic and obviously failed :)

question: what's with army people and the letter ق ?
i mean it's really hilarious when a guy starts shouting and making himself look as tough as scary as hell so you'd be disciplined fel tabour and then he instructs on you how to yell صاعكاااااا. Yes my dear friends سيادة النكيب mabye3rafsh ye2ol ق.

olt estha ... maho kan esmo tamer bardo. but then i was surberized to see that this thing was an infection they all had! 7assool (حاصول محمد) who was the small-ranked guy in charge of our little 'platoon' started working us through el taboor ... yemeen dorr ... shemaal dorr ... salam lel amaam ... and the best of all, mo3tadal 7'atwa tanzeem!

this is basically us banging our feet to the ground as if we're marching but while staying in place, and singing behind حاصول:
سأصنع
من دمي
للعدى
رصاصا و كنابل
...
بطل ضحك يا كابتن يابو كاب انتا
و لو خيروني
بين الخلود و الفدا
فأنا مكاتل مكاتل مكاتل
يا كابتن لو شفتك بتدحك تاني حاطلعك تغنيها لوحدك في نص الطابور

sa3kaaaaaaa :D

KATEEBA SAFA - NAFFAD LNAFSAK!!!

tarbeya 3askareya is finally over :)
been two of the most useless weeks i've ever spent in my life but now it's over!! we took the final 'exam' this morning and were sent home finally.
now i can do something useful, try to find a stable job, work on my photography, and prepare for my upcoming test in early september.

2aal 7edd etnein 2aal ... :D

whatEVER

Whatever you need
whatever you got
whatever you want
I'll take back again!!

~ Our Lady Peace



i think music is starting to get to me again ... :)

Right Where it Belongs

i know i posted this song once before ... but here we go again ...

Quoting the legends

As you look around this room tonight
Settle in your seat and dim the lights
Do you want my blood, do you want my tears
What do you want
What do you want from me
Should I sing until I can't sing any more
Play these strings till my fingers are raw
I do my best to please
What do you want from me

Do you think that I know something you don't know
What do you want from me
If I don't promise you the answers would you go
What do you want from me
Should I stand out in the rain
Do you want me to make a daisy chain for you
I'm not the one that you need
What do you want from me

You can have anything you want
You can drift, you can dream, even walk on water
Anything you want

You can own everything you see
Sell your soul for complete control
Is that really what you need

You can lose yourself this night
See inside there is nothing to hide
Turn and face the light

What do you want from me


~ Pink Floyd

Counting Down

I'm counting down the days till:

• tarbeya 3askareyya is over
• till i can get a job
• till i could finally know my status with the army
• till i feel good again
• till i hit the road again
• till i hit the water again
• till i look up and see the sun rays playing with the water surface above me
• till i can sleep on the sand watching the stars above me and hearing nothing but tiny waves breaking on the shore next to me
• till i can look beside me and find something pleasant to look at
• till i can actually grasp the things i need to grasp and take my photography one step further
• till i have my name where it can be looked up at
• till i can actually sleep

feeling: in a deep state of longing
Listening to: Portishead

I don't know who you are, but you seem very nice, so will you talk to me?

So i have nothing else to do today but sit here ... i look around and seems everyone's doing this tag thing ... yulla :)

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes/music player on Shuffle,
2. For each question, press the next button to get you answer,
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER WHAT!!

After you’ve answered all of the questions, tag 5 other people and then let them know they’ve been tagged to do them themselves.



1. IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
Aftertaste ~ Ben Lee
(oops?)
2. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Re-Offender ~ Travis
(LOL ... i wish in a way)
3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Sorrow ~ Pink Floyd
(huh?!)
4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Long Line of Cars ~ Cake
(haha ... true!)
5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Be Free ~ Paparoach
(oh my ... maybe ...)
6. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Citizen Erased ~ Muse
(maybe i should've picked another playlist :))
7. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Comfort Eagle ~ Cake
(HAHA ... i wish!!)
8. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Supermassive Black Hole ~ Muse
;)
9. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Straight Out Of Line ~ Godsmack
i'm ditching them tomorrow :P
10.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
One Step Closer ~ Linkin Park
this is looking hopeless
11.WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
No Jesus Christ ~ Seether
hmmm...
12.WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Echo ~ Vertical Horizon
(NOW THAT's AWESOME!!)
13.WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Angel ~ Massive Attack
(awww ... )
14. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Wipe That Small Off Your Face ~ Our Lady Peace
(LOL don't you dare tell whomever she is)
15. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Right Where it Belongs ~ Nine Inch Nails
(ouch! but makes perfect and scary sense)
16.WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Where Did It All Go Wrong ~ Oasis
...
17. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Maybe Tomorrow ~ Stereophonics
true!
18.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Tremor Christ ~ Pearl Jam
out of bounds
19. WHAT SHOULD YOU POST THIS AS?
Everything for Free ~ K's Choice
i love this song :)
20. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOURSELF?
Risingson ~ Massive Attack
yeah baby!

Quitting (contd.)

starting today i'm hopefully quitting at least two things

So i haven't really been bloggin much ... and i haven't been talking much either ... something in me just doesn't feel like talking. and when it does, it doesn't last for long. It's really suffocating...

however the valve turned on last night in the weirdest of ways, i spent something like two hours driving around and singing with my stereo and for some reason it just felt great ... i'm sure my company in the car didn't enjoy it one bit though :D

thank you music!

Interesting Late Night Thought

You meet someone, and you're definite you have seen them somewhere before. You're so damn sure you knew that person ... there's that weird sense of warmth and familiarity between the two of you but neither of you can remember where or if you have ever met before.

The question is: Is it possible that people can know each other closely and drift so apart they forget each other, then meet again and just be friends again as if nothing has ever been? can friendship just be sent to oblivion that easily??

Third

So for some reason i've been hooked on Portishead the past few days. I've been taking their discography in order one album after the other ... until i reached the third album, also called "third", when this obsession just faded away...
why do all the good bands have to screw up that bad these days??
I've hated the new albums of Coldplay, REM, Maroon5, Portishead ... or let me make this easier, i haven't heard a good new album maybe since Seether released 'Finding Beauty in Negative Places' or NIN released 'The Slip'.

but then again i kinda didn't like those even at first so i hope things change cause i'm getting pretty bored and i need some good new music!

And the question is ... ?

-Who puts Ukrainian referees in a match between Russia and a middle-eastern country and expects them to be fair?? Yes once again Egypt was screwed by the referees in their match against Russia this morning!

-How much education do they provide for military people here?? i've heard more stupid crap (was supposedly scientific) from the tarbeyya 3askareyya high ranked people than i've heard my entire life...

- Do i just seem to attract bitches or bitchy behavior?

- How cool can driving really early in the morning down the streets of Cairo be??

GO EGYPT!!!

One of the best and yet least appreciated athletic teams in Egypt is for sure our handball team. However, there's a reason people don't give them that much attention anymore. Their form just keeps fluctuating, one year they are GREAT, the next they are unbearably disappointing. Actually it's more like a game-to-game thing, one game they rock, the other you wonder where did all the spirit go.
Today those guys played like heros! Despite some refereeing i could go as far as to call 'unfair', and despite being outnumbered for most of the second half inwhich they started behind, they settled for a draw against Denmark, the champions of Europe. And i say settled because they could and would've won if it weren't for some bizarre decisions by the referee in the last 5 minutes of the game causing them to play with one less player for the final minutes of the game, which they started behind, but managed to keep their act together and actually take the lead before the danes got a draw in the very end.
Seriously if they could keep that form, i could expect a medal.


GO EGYPT!!!!

TRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRNNNNN!!!!!

Today was my first day in the stupid tarbeya 3askareya thing i have to go through before i graduate from college ... and it proved to be as stupid and useless as i expected it to be... we just stand in useless lines doing some stupid military walks and talks, sit in a crowded hall listening to meaningless crap about history and ethics that are not alive anymore ... and go home hating this country and our lives.

However, i have to get up around 6am every day which is good, and it's really useful if you really wanna learn how to control your nerves! (always an upside to anything these days :))

This morning, i was washing my face when exactly at 6am, i heard the sound of an alarm clock ringing somewhere in the building. It's the same noisy old alarm clock with bells that i used to hear ringing at the same time when i was a child preparing my stuff and waiting for my school bus. As noisy as it is, something in the way it sounded made me feel just great. I'll be waiting to hear it's noise again tomorrow :)

oh and we also had lobia for lunch!! not the ones with the black dots, the other plain white ones... i think i hadn't had that since i was a kid bardo!!! something just feels ok despite all the shit that's going on so i'm thankful :)

Some things are not to be redefined ... sometimes not even defined at all in the first place ... or maybe that's just the way I work. I love my friends, I love having that particular amount of friends... they're just about the only people I can truly be myself around ... no worries ... no judgments ... not too many question marks ... people that can understand and appreciate...

That's exactly why i hardly ever hang out with anyone else ... there's never a time when there's nothing going on in my head.. there's hardly ever a time when my day has been just about nothing ... so i'm thoughtful most of the time ... and lately i can just fall silent for an entire outing ... just out of being tired from what happened before in the day, or thinking of what will happen the next day... my friends never judge me for that ... or make me feel bad about it ... at least i hope they don't :)

sometimes it's just ok to be there because u enjoy the feeling of being there ... being around this particular company ... and that's it. u don't need to be entertaining the crowd or trying to prove something about yourself to them ... because whatever it is about you ... it's already there ... and they already know it ... and that's what gives them the name 'friends'.

so here's to all my real friends out there ...