I reached a state where i don't really care if it's right or wrong (it's not like i'm that perfect anyways) yet the usual methods people go through like hash or alcohol won't really work for me. I'm not that fond of weed, and i hate hangovers and headaches.
I need to be excited, i need to be happy, i need to feel just great, for just one moment and hope that this moment would spread it to those few following it ...
In a state of immense longing for the Blue (again!)
Kov
Friday, November 9, 2007
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
The Deep Blue
You take a few deep breaths and let them out quickly ... then you take one very deep breath and hold it ... face down and let the fins do their job in getting you as deep as they can ... you adjust your ear and mask pressures so you're now at ease ... you check the depth guage in your hand to see that it finally marks (15 meters) ... YOU MADE IT!!!
you take a few seconds to look around you ... everything is so blue ... calm ... peaceful ... and it sure feels great!
you take another few seconds to look up ... you notice the sun shining as this white blotch, around it blue lines dance with the motion of the water surface, pulling with them the white lines of light to dance around you ... the further you go with your eyes from there, things get bluer and bluer ... till it reaches that perfect shade that fills your eyes, mind and heart with peace. Then you notice "my God this is so far away", and you feel so small in that immense water volume you're in ... so small and insignificant ... yet it's the most exhilarating feeling you've ever had.
Suddenly you start feeling this uneasiness in your chest ... you need air! ... you start swimming up ... the pain in your chest starts increasing more and more as your lungs cry for air.
You finally get there ... you feel the cold air rush into your lungs ... yet you're not that satisfied with it ... you simply felt more alive being down there!
My God i missed that feeling ... I miss the deep blue!
In the memory of one of the best moments i ever had in my whole life
Marsa Breika (Ras Mohamed) ~ Egypt
October 12th 2007 ~ 16:21
Music of the moment: Moby ~ Porcelain
you take a few seconds to look around you ... everything is so blue ... calm ... peaceful ... and it sure feels great!
you take another few seconds to look up ... you notice the sun shining as this white blotch, around it blue lines dance with the motion of the water surface, pulling with them the white lines of light to dance around you ... the further you go with your eyes from there, things get bluer and bluer ... till it reaches that perfect shade that fills your eyes, mind and heart with peace. Then you notice "my God this is so far away", and you feel so small in that immense water volume you're in ... so small and insignificant ... yet it's the most exhilarating feeling you've ever had.
Suddenly you start feeling this uneasiness in your chest ... you need air! ... you start swimming up ... the pain in your chest starts increasing more and more as your lungs cry for air.
You finally get there ... you feel the cold air rush into your lungs ... yet you're not that satisfied with it ... you simply felt more alive being down there!
My God i missed that feeling ... I miss the deep blue!
In the memory of one of the best moments i ever had in my whole life
Marsa Breika (Ras Mohamed) ~ Egypt
October 12th 2007 ~ 16:21
Music of the moment: Moby ~ Porcelain
Monday, November 5, 2007
Note To Self
Refrain from receiving help in big matters or issues in life ... try to just carve your way in yourself...
too much close contact with people creates misinterpretations, judgments and expectations that will make you lose more than gain.
Always do things with the best faith and intentions so that in the situation where you're inevitably judged and portrayed as the ultimate asshole, you'll still have that inner belief and faith in yourself, and every step you had taken on your way to back you up.
Song of the edgy morning: Paparoach ~ Getting Away With Murder
too much close contact with people creates misinterpretations, judgments and expectations that will make you lose more than gain.
Always do things with the best faith and intentions so that in the situation where you're inevitably judged and portrayed as the ultimate asshole, you'll still have that inner belief and faith in yourself, and every step you had taken on your way to back you up.
Song of the edgy morning: Paparoach ~ Getting Away With Murder
Sunday, November 4, 2007
Yet Another Question?!
Why does our sincere acts of care or the nice things we do have to fit in the frames set for us, and render meaningless without fitting in them, even if what we do is beyond the limits of those frames???!
7elleheh!
7elleheh!
Saturday, November 3, 2007
A Blast From the Past
Driving back home yesterday after one of the longest days ever, a line jumped into my head ... after lots of mental effort I finally remembered ... It's from Alanis' 'All I Really Want' !!!! LOONG TIME whew
this song holds a significant value in my heart. I can say it's the first decent track that ever attracted me. In order to understand that a bit more, you need to go a little through my musical history.
I grew up in a very typical Egyptian family, (my dad's not that typical but he wasn't there much before my Mom died, at least not that i remember). So, as any Egyptian family all the music I listened to as a kid was 3afaaf Raady, Latifa, and Hany Shaker, then there was a new star on the rise called Amr Diab :D ... Occasionally there would be some BeeGees playing in my Mom's car stereo but Disco music never attracted me back then.
One day, i was singing with my class in music class (i was 6), and my genius music teacher loved my voice (REAL GENIUS!!!). This love was manifested in my doing a solo performance in the Mothers' Day school celebration ... and in this marvelous celebration, i sang ... e7m ... Hany Shaker's "3ally el De7kaaya" ... e7m again!!! e7m
I also remember a day when a thief broke into our car and stole my Medhat Sale7 tapes in Alexandria ... man i was so angry ... there was no more 'ana 3ayez 3eesh fkawkab tany???!' and yes that's what i thought he was saying at that time ... and it made perfect sense to me back then!!
Then of course by the age of 9 came the amazing Michael Jackson period that every kewl ejybshan kid had to go through ... when you just play cool singing lyrics that don't make sense even in Zulu language, thinking maho he's screaming and getting hickups throughout the whole songs akeed that's his music ... eehe2 adooba aah turns out to be 'it ain't too much stuff' three years later (for reference check out Michael's track 'JAM'. (also thought to mean Marabba at the time).
Moving on ... there was this period, my dad's car broke down and a generous friend of his lent him his awesome Land Rover Discovery with a CD player, (ayyaam mal CD's kanet e7'teraa3) ... playing around with the buttons i played and then came this track with this woman sounding really insane, rebellious ... and for the first time maybe in my whole life, i could actually interpret the lyrics ... and i loved them ... i loved the music ... i loved everything ... eh el 7'ara elly ana basma3o tool 3omry da???!! and then came the following track ,,, and the one after ... and the one after ... i was hooked ... and i can say that now, 11 years later, this album is playing as i write this ... i'm never bored of it... "Jagged Little Pill" ~ Alanis Morissette and it's first track "All I Really Want"
and this was my intro to real music ... ofcourse i had my usual metallica periods as well, pink floyd shortly after, and now i'm where i am ... i don't care about the genre as long as there is some good music that people put effort in (more effort than a few mouse clicks on a pc) ... although i like some electronic stuff but those have to be seriously wicked!!!
So here's to you all ... and here's to music ... and here's to Alanis ... and the song of today is
Alanis Morissette ~ All I Really Want
this song holds a significant value in my heart. I can say it's the first decent track that ever attracted me. In order to understand that a bit more, you need to go a little through my musical history.
I grew up in a very typical Egyptian family, (my dad's not that typical but he wasn't there much before my Mom died, at least not that i remember). So, as any Egyptian family all the music I listened to as a kid was 3afaaf Raady, Latifa, and Hany Shaker, then there was a new star on the rise called Amr Diab :D ... Occasionally there would be some BeeGees playing in my Mom's car stereo but Disco music never attracted me back then.
One day, i was singing with my class in music class (i was 6), and my genius music teacher loved my voice (REAL GENIUS!!!). This love was manifested in my doing a solo performance in the Mothers' Day school celebration ... and in this marvelous celebration, i sang ... e7m ... Hany Shaker's "3ally el De7kaaya" ... e7m again!!! e7m
I also remember a day when a thief broke into our car and stole my Medhat Sale7 tapes in Alexandria ... man i was so angry ... there was no more 'ana 3ayez 3eesh fkawkab tany???!' and yes that's what i thought he was saying at that time ... and it made perfect sense to me back then!!
Then of course by the age of 9 came the amazing Michael Jackson period that every kewl ejybshan kid had to go through ... when you just play cool singing lyrics that don't make sense even in Zulu language, thinking maho he's screaming and getting hickups throughout the whole songs akeed that's his music ... eehe2 adooba aah turns out to be 'it ain't too much stuff' three years later (for reference check out Michael's track 'JAM'. (also thought to mean Marabba at the time).
Moving on ... there was this period, my dad's car broke down and a generous friend of his lent him his awesome Land Rover Discovery with a CD player, (ayyaam mal CD's kanet e7'teraa3) ... playing around with the buttons i played and then came this track with this woman sounding really insane, rebellious ... and for the first time maybe in my whole life, i could actually interpret the lyrics ... and i loved them ... i loved the music ... i loved everything ... eh el 7'ara elly ana basma3o tool 3omry da???!! and then came the following track ,,, and the one after ... and the one after ... i was hooked ... and i can say that now, 11 years later, this album is playing as i write this ... i'm never bored of it... "Jagged Little Pill" ~ Alanis Morissette and it's first track "All I Really Want"
and this was my intro to real music ... ofcourse i had my usual metallica periods as well, pink floyd shortly after, and now i'm where i am ... i don't care about the genre as long as there is some good music that people put effort in (more effort than a few mouse clicks on a pc) ... although i like some electronic stuff but those have to be seriously wicked!!!
So here's to you all ... and here's to music ... and here's to Alanis ... and the song of today is
Alanis Morissette ~ All I Really Want
Friday, November 2, 2007
Friday Morning
Woke up early for breakfast plans ... but it didn't work out (needn't explain why :P) but an hour later i got a call from some friends saying they're going for some breakfast ... so i thanked God my morning didn't go to waste ... it was nice ... it just feels awkward how life circumstances change, how the lives of us humans evolve and pushes us away from our friends, back and forth ... makes one wonder, will i know everyone i know ten years from now? even my closest of friends??! and i still wonder
mood wise, i feel mellow today ... and so is my song for this morning ... it's called Coffee and Cigarettes by Michelle Featherstone.
Enjoy your morning :)
Kov
mood wise, i feel mellow today ... and so is my song for this morning ... it's called Coffee and Cigarettes by Michelle Featherstone.
Enjoy your morning :)
Kov
Thursday, November 1, 2007
Long Day
So today i had another hectic day, i skipped college to conduct this pool training for a new diving student we have. It all went well, the guy was doing great and we finished in a record of three and a half hours. Then i had to drive all the way to Maadi and back to return the tanks.
After i got home i felt terribly weak... and dozed off immediately! woke up at two in the morning cursing my freaking bioclock just to discover the following:
I'm a freaking lazyass couch-potato that hardly ever exercises, and this week i've been working out like every other day, and did two pool trainings already ... I have to collapse!
anyways, i'm trying to figure out a way to stay awake or sleep and wake up in time for college ... orelse it will turn into the usual ... skip college and do nothing (did i mention i was such a lazyass couch-potato?).
On other grounds, i've been facing some technical difficulties on my music list, google groups didn't send any invitations to people with email domains other than gmail, and yahoogroups doesn't want to attach the songs cause they're too big, i downloaded cooledit and sized it down but again it won't attach it ... thank god yousendit.com is there, cause now i can upload it there and share the link.
Thanks for the first (and only so far) two who subscribed, sou and aya, you two are more than enough to get me going :)
After i got home i felt terribly weak... and dozed off immediately! woke up at two in the morning cursing my freaking bioclock just to discover the following:
I'm a freaking lazyass couch-potato that hardly ever exercises, and this week i've been working out like every other day, and did two pool trainings already ... I have to collapse!
anyways, i'm trying to figure out a way to stay awake or sleep and wake up in time for college ... orelse it will turn into the usual ... skip college and do nothing (did i mention i was such a lazyass couch-potato?).
On other grounds, i've been facing some technical difficulties on my music list, google groups didn't send any invitations to people with email domains other than gmail, and yahoogroups doesn't want to attach the songs cause they're too big, i downloaded cooledit and sized it down but again it won't attach it ... thank god yousendit.com is there, cause now i can upload it there and share the link.
Thanks for the first (and only so far) two who subscribed, sou and aya, you two are more than enough to get me going :)
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