Music Blogging

Somehow i'm still not feeling satisfied with the blogging experience ... i can never get myself to write what i feel ... it never totally describes it or makes me feel like i let it out... I'm thinking of another way to share what i feel with the world.
Somehow however i feel there's a track playing that totally relates to it ... most of the day that track find its way to my Song of the Day list (if anyone checks that). So here's what i'll do.
I'll make a mailing list and have all those who're interested join, and i'll send those subscribers the song of the day once it's out.
for those interested please comment on this post along with your contacts so i could add you to the list.

Question

A question to all those who complain how life is unfair, people are morons and to those that feel that everyone is doing them wrong and that every single human being is a bastard and an asshole:
what would you do if you recalculate things and find yourself guilty of the exact same thing?!

New Revelation??

Well ... it might not actually be that new afterall:
from thoughts and various incidents and situations that took place last week, i can finally say that maybe i don't really know my self that well ...
all i can say is i wish i were more strong and less lost, stupid and passive


Currently playing track Karim Naguib ~ Hayaah Men 3'eer Malaame7
really great track btw you should check it out

SAPPY SAPPY

without further delay ... the song of the day :D

Jimmy Eat World ~ 23

KORNIMANIA

TODAY i woke up feeling extremely angry for no reason ... actually it's been on me since last night ... and i'm in my usual status of wither not knowing or now wanting to know what it is that's making me feel that way ... denial is such a ... second thought, i don't know if it's good or bad ^O)
anywayz today's song recommendation has to be heard at maximum possible volume, and preferably with you singing along .... don't be afraid to get a little crazy in the process :)

KORN ~ RIGHT NOW !!!!

Alone I Break

I was reminded by this pure masterpiece by one of my friends' nickname ... this song is absolutely awesome ... it's so me ... especially in this period of my life... no matter how much i write when i'm down i can never express it that way.
KORN ~ ALONE I BREAK it's a must get ... THANK YOU RANA!!!!

KORN LYRICS

"Alone I Break"

Pick me up
been bleeding too long
Right here, right now
I'll stop it some how

I will make it go away
can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
these feelings will be gone
these feelings will be gone

Now I see the times they change
leaving doesn't seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
where to leave my hurt behind
All this shit I seem to take
all alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?

Shut me off
I am ready,
Heart stops
I stand alone
Can't be on my own

I will make it go away
can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
these feelings will be gone
these feelings will be gone

Now I see the times they change
leaving doesn't seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
where to leave my hurt behind
All this shit I seem to take
all alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?

Am I going to leave this place?
What is it I'm running from?
is there nothing more to come? (am I Gunna leave this place?)
Is it always black in space?
Am I going to take it's place?
Am I going to leave this race? (Am I going to leave this race?)
I guess god's up in this place?
what is it that I've become?
is there something more to come? (more to come)

Now I see the times they change
leaving doesn't seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
where to leave my hurt behind
All this shit I seem to take
all alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man? [x2]

SHIT!!! did i never mention GODSMACK's 'Whatever'?

Back from My Head

Sometimes you don't realize the value of something you had until you lose it ... for me, i didn't realize how much i needed something until i finally got it ... A WEEK-LONG DIVING VACATION OUTSIDE CAIRO!!!!!
Technically it wasn't that much of a vacation as i was working all the time, but still i enjoyed it BIGTIME!!! 17 open water students, 7 intros ... yeehaaaa!!!! there's nothing like the sea to cure me, stepping in the water at 8am and out of it at 6 ...
i can't believe how tanned my face is, and can't believe i reached 15 metres free diving (just mask and fins) ...
the sea life was great, sting rays are amazing, napoleons .... everything ... and i didn't need to exceed 20 metres.
mel a7'er i'm glad and i'm happy and i wanna do it again ...
FUCK YOU CAIRO LIFESTYLE!!!! :D

song of the day: System of a Down ~ Chop Suey

Song of Today

Today's song by all means is Travis' "ReOffender"
For those who don't have it ... it's a must get

Here are the lyrics too:

Travis ~ Re-Offender

Keeping up appearances

Keeping up with the Jones'

Fooling my selfish heart

Going through the motions



But I'm fooling myself

I'm fooling myself

Cause you say you love me

And then you do it again, you do it again

You say your sorry's

And then you do it again, you do it again



Everybody thinks you're well

Everybody thinks I'm ill

Watching me fall apart

Falling under your spell



But you're fooling yourself

You're fooling yourself

Cause you say you love me

And then you do it again, you do it again

You say your sorry's

And then you do it again, you do it again

And again and again and again and again



But you're fooling yourself

You're fooling yourself

Cause you say you love me

And then you do it again, you do it again

You say your sorry's

And then you do it again, you do it again

You say you love me

And then you do it again, you do it again

You say your sorry's

And then you do it again, you do it again

And again and again and again and again

Change of direction

Suddenly i'm sick of talking/writing about all that crap ... the crap's there all the time and all i can do is decide i'll stop it and talk about it .. but do i?
well i decided i'll stop blogging about the crap ... if i'll let it out i'll let it out to more trustable sources at least for a while till i change my mind. as for now ... my blog's only for musical suggestions and here's the first one:

i don't know what's with songs from albums i hate but this one is ... it's Metallica's Frantic from their latest shitty album. Enshoy

Mal3ooba Ya Donya!

Yesterday I had a kinda long conversation with one of the oldest dearest people to me ... another great person to be added to the list of those i lost out of being stupid or unsure or confused or just lost in figuring life out.
This conversation pushed back a very old thought in my head. There's nothing you can do in this life that has no effect on someone else, no matter how hard you try, especially if you are in a relationship with that person. As a matter of fact, being in a relationship kinda makes it worse. I mean Yes, sure there are ALOT of up sides to a relationship and love and all that but it's obviously about much more than that. Everything doesn't only have to just fit, but it also needs to synchronize time-wise. And that's exactly what i can blame all my relationship failures upon... Timing.

The first one ever's timing fault was that it was too soon before our actual personalities in facing life were formed. By the time we grew up i realized maybe we're not matching on any other level than feelings. I don't mean anything bad at all (au contraire) this person is one of THE greatest, most respectable, and beautiful soles i've ever met in my whole life, if not THE. I just panicked on how my life would turn if i stayed with that person for good ... it would be a good life but not the life i've always pictures for me.

And then it was what I still believe is the biggest piece of irony in my life. After my first relationship was through, i set off to find a person who can live life the way i've pictures for myself ... someone that's compatible with all my interests and things i enjoy. It wasn't that long before i did find that person. I was completely rejected for a long while but fought a hell lot for it until finally i was there ... in my second relationship. After years of just not feeling the constant struggle i was in was right, i discovered it. I was rejected for that long and am not really enjoying this the way i pictured myself to be because of one simple detail. Yes this person likes the same things i like, and enjoys the same things i enjoy ... she just enjoys to do them alone!
so after being in a relationship that's all about feelings and no practicalities ... i find myself in a relationship of practicalities and not that much feelings ... mal3ooba mennik ya donia wallahy!

The there was the shortest and to me the most mysterious of all of them ... but for this one i don't have as much conclusions as I have for all my other relationship experiences. It started off very shortly after a breakup i had, and was going great ... apart from the fact that i was totally emotionally and mentally unstable at the time ... The person with me was witnessing the whole ordeal from the very beginning but somehow this relationship started at this timing and went in that same way ... and then ended because i was apparently not giving it my all...
Questions are: Was i rebounding or was i still shook up that i couldn't give my all in a relationship till I know exactly if it'll really work out?
Was i the unsure person or was it her? If I was blindfolded by everything I was through, wasn't she witnessing it all as well, especially that she was more experienced in the matter of feelings than i was?
I seriously can never find any answer to any of those questions no matter how long i think ... i can never lay my hand on what exactly was wrong. especially that again the person was really undeniably great.

As a matter of fact i consider myself lucky to be blessed with such great people, but it's always something wrong at the time that makes me lose them over and again. things that if were waited upon for just a little while would be all set and would make everything work. I can't recall the amount of further stages in my life when i was looking back and thinking how this relationship would've worked if it had come now and not at that previous time ... it's obvious that i get rid of my complexities later than i should ... or maybe my life is just lagging a year behind anyone else's ... the problem is getting them to rhyme together ... that's something i was never able to do. mal3ooba fe3lan ya donya!

A Bad Thought

One bad thing about being into photography is always being given the camera to shoot your friends in occasions ... hence when looking back on the memories you never find yourself in the picture!

Photo Wedgey :D

That's what they call it on trekearth wallahy i'm innocent :D
i finally managed to install it on my blog :D unfortunately it takes photos from themes only so you'll only find the tannoura collection ... but i'm happy ... and i love my collection :D

good day ... i think

ok .. i take it back

So, what i expected did happen, and this phase all started... The problem is, i'm not really enjoying it as i expected. I guess i couldn't be the mean by nature after all.
I am feeling better thanks God, though my days are nothing but productive. I oversleep everyday and eventually miss college, as everything else that could be missed thanks to Ramadan's excellent schedule.
Another good thing is, i started working again :) ... a very small temporary job that won't even last a month but as they say in Egypt .. yalla aho mas7 zoor... so it takes some stress off ...
another good side effect of it is i think i'm becoming really good at teaching ... i might actually consider it for a carreer :D

yalla i'll c u all later