Kov's Outlet

i'm pissed ... and i know i shouldn't be but i am .... i'm just sick of it ...
i know and appreciate everything ... but sometimes i have needs as well ... needs as simple as feeling i can talk and have you listen ... and that's actually all i need ...
but i'm tired ... tired of the usual thing i always get .. something like always 'oh hunny sorry i'm too tired' ... 5 seconds later the phone's hung up .... and a coupla days after you're wonderin how u can never feel like i'm opening up to you ...
well the answer is right here ... i'm just sick of that heartache i feel whenever i'm ready to open up and find such a reaction ... cause believe it or not ... despite how sentimental i might seem to be sometimes, it's very difficult for me to really open up ... and it's getting more difficult each day as i'm becoming not only worried about my being just wide open, but also i'm worried i might feel the same crappy feeling i was made to feel the last 100 times i decided to ...
and now all i can do is sleep on it ...
hope you're feeling better in the morning ... and i actually hate it cause i'm not addressing this line to myself...
DUH!!!