Lately i've been addicted to XKCD comics

Maybe a revelation!

I think my problem might be that i subconsciously don't like starting small! I want big results right away! i'm too hasty.
i know where i want to go, the small steps on the way are just too boring sometimes ...

one night

one night about two years ago i fell asleep in a coffee shop.
I woke up on her being so kind and sincere ... I continued to pretend to be asleep and she got even kinder ... In ways she hardly ever makes me witness.
Sometimes, and currently, i miss this kindness ... This sincerity ... I wish i could just see that what i hear is true ... Or feel the warmth of it move around in my vains ...
If that's the normal nature of things then my god nature is cruel ...

some people do know how to make you miserable!

Happy Birthday?

As my present to you on this wonderful birthday, I am gonna make you hate everything you are, and put your dreams at imminent risk. I'm gonna make you hate everything that's dear to you and regret every choice you made.
On your birthday i'm gonna teach you not to care and not to appreciate, and be the person you always dreamed of ... what's one more birthday to your 5 continuous streak?

WAIT!! is it really 5 or more??! for some reason i don't remember ... but then again maybe that's a good thing for a change ...

have a wonderful birthday darling ... enjoy it like all the rest ....

Patience

Patience is seriously one of the virtues anyone can have. Over the past week i've been trying to have as much of that as possible ... and things continuously try to make me go over the line. And it's still not helping.
Some alarming things are re-occurring and i'm seriously not happy. I can even go as far as say that i haven't been on this particular edge for years... and this is seriously not good.
Once again, it takes two to TANGO and i shouldn't care about group matters on my own... let's hope i still have some more of that patience orelse i'll just blow this thing for good and byebye...




i feel like destroying something ....

when life demonstrates to you for the hundredth time that all the things you're counting on to make you feel better are not so quite successful or useful then maybe you should learn to fucking shut up and keep things to yourself