WOW it really has been 20 days?

yesterday i discovered that it's been 20 days since i last wrote anything here. I had lots of things i wanted to talk about here but never actually found the time. Yeah i hate the way it sounds too? am i really becoming that busy person all the time? And if so then how come mesh laye2 3alayya 7'aales?!
the past 20 days have been quite ... uhhh ... something :D
i finally finished midterms, my God i hate college, and wanna get out of it ba2a!!! specially that all my friends are graduating this year :( ... mal3oon abo kahraba elly a7'art 3eshty sana 3ashanha and then decided to do something else with my life!! isn't it ironic?
you waste a year of your life just for something that turns out bad and you eventually find something you like better to do and it's totally irrelevant to college?? ma 3aleena ...
Enough with the crap ... let's write something good for a change ... ka3boora galha cassette :D ... walla addeema dy kaman?
anywayz last night, i was driving my lovely ka3boora at 3 in the morning in El-Azhar area, roof down, and with Aida El-Ayoubi on high volume at cruising speed, not fast, not slow. i felt like time froze. it's like everything was perfect for some time ... 'wel donyaaaaaaa 7alawet-haaa .... kelma 7eeelwa tetamennneeeee' along with the atmosphere there it was amazing.
i was going for a photo shoot today but i needed someone to pose and she canceled at last second :@ add eih mesh tay2ik ya noora 7aaleyan. and i took that as an aliby and took my only day off since eternity and am spending it at home!
I'm planning to go stargazing somehow tonight, i wanna catch that shooting star storm they're talking about, i just hope it ends up real, and i hope i come up with an idea for the place to go to because everywhere close is light polluted.
i think that's all i can remember for my news feed today, will try write more frequently :)

CAKE

I HEARD THIS SONG ON THE RADIO YESTERDAY AND I JUST HAD TO GET IT ...
I LOVE IT!!!!!

CAKE ~ NEVER THERE

i'm pissed ... and i know i shouldn't be but i am .... i'm just sick of it ...
i know and appreciate everything ... but sometimes i have needs as well ... needs as simple as feeling i can talk and have you listen ... and that's actually all i need ...
but i'm tired ... tired of the usual thing i always get .. something like always 'oh hunny sorry i'm too tired' ... 5 seconds later the phone's hung up .... and a coupla days after you're wonderin how u can never feel like i'm opening up to you ...
well the answer is right here ... i'm just sick of that heartache i feel whenever i'm ready to open up and find such a reaction ... cause believe it or not ... despite how sentimental i might seem to be sometimes, it's very difficult for me to really open up ... and it's getting more difficult each day as i'm becoming not only worried about my being just wide open, but also i'm worried i might feel the same crappy feeling i was made to feel the last 100 times i decided to ...
and now all i can do is sleep on it ...
hope you're feeling better in the morning ... and i actually hate it cause i'm not addressing this line to myself...
DUH!!!