Lately i've been addicted to XKCD comics

Maybe a revelation!

I think my problem might be that i subconsciously don't like starting small! I want big results right away! i'm too hasty.
i know where i want to go, the small steps on the way are just too boring sometimes ...

one night

one night about two years ago i fell asleep in a coffee shop.
I woke up on her being so kind and sincere ... I continued to pretend to be asleep and she got even kinder ... In ways she hardly ever makes me witness.
Sometimes, and currently, i miss this kindness ... This sincerity ... I wish i could just see that what i hear is true ... Or feel the warmth of it move around in my vains ...
If that's the normal nature of things then my god nature is cruel ...