OFF MY CASE ... off my case ... f m cs

today was one of the most hectic days ever ... i went to that conference i overslept and rushed to that conference i had to go to ... taking the subway cause it's much faster than using the car and i don't have to waste hours searching for parking spots ... just to arrive at the wrong hilton!!! lucky me the other is just a 5 min walking distance away ... but i hate walking (or rushing actually) in classic shoes...
anywayz i had lots of nice encounters that i think are good for the work and all ...
tomorrow my new bosses are supposed to arrive ... and i'm feelin scared... hopefully it'll be fine... i need a break ...
and the only break i have is to sleep for the next 8 hours cause an hour after that i have to be in college...
i'm tired, i'm in love, i'm scared, i'm busy, i'm worried, i'm full, i'm craving for lots of things .... can't think of any more feelings right now.
song of the day and yesterday and the moment is radiohead's 'packed like sardines in a crushed tin box' a veeery long name

Another Bend?? So Soon?

Right next to Magda Abd-ElMoneim's Office (My school Principal), there used to be a poster that truely touched me and is stuck to my memory ever since i was in school. It had a picture of a road in a snakey canyon with a car just about to go into the curve and beneath that there was one of my favourite quotes of all time:

A Bend In The Road Is Not The End Of The Road ....

Unless You Fail To Take The Turn.

And it just feels like again i'm heading for one of the these bends. I totally can't stand college, i don't go that much anymore, truth is, i can't see myself doing this for much anymore. So i'm seeking other alternatives, even in my head. I like my assistant job but it's just not something i can do for the rest of my live, so is the diving thing ,,, would be nice as side jobs like my dad is doing ... but can i actually live of it?

thing really playing in my head and looking good is developement studies ... trick is to just finish this college, get the freakin degree, and go on that road ... and see ...

i'm taking the turn ... and i don't intend to fail, maybe my suspensions aren't the best, but my control over the wheel will get me there,.

befaaya metaphores ba2a 3ashan ebtadeet atfe2e3 men nafsy ...

peace out

VAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIIIN

THAT'S ME .... VAIN

i spent the last 15 minutes just staring at my new desktop wallpaper ... which is just a picture of ME!!!!

well maybe it's just a continuation of a very boring and unfruitful day ... i miss monmon .... i miss lots of things really ... and i'm just .... BORED!

no deep thinking today ... no deep thinking for a hwile ... and i'll just keep my blogging hibernation on ..,

i'm outta here

oh and there's the pic :D

Fcuked Up Creativity

I'm still high on my muse rush and i just can't get enough of it ... these folks are so creative in their music it's awesome ... and then i focused more on the lyrics ... darn that's fucked up ... when it finally suddenly struck me ... that's probably why it's like that , cause these guys are fucked up bigtime!! and it's actually something i love ... we get out best out of us when we're totally screwed up ... the trick is how to let it out ;)
peace out ....
oh and happy 3amm valankayne

MUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUSEEEEEEK

Well today was a good day ... i finally got myself to stop slacking around and went to take photographs ... today i was shooting Noora, a very interesting person who i met while working @ ICT .... and i hope the pics turn out well :) ... sa7ee7 i was doing the same thing of zooming in too much (GOD CAN'T I EVER STOP THAT??) but i guess it's just my style ba2a ... i can't get over it .. it just feels better like that ... i never feel good enough to click off the shutter on the big thing ... I LOVE DETAIL!!!!!!!! SUE ME!!!!!!!!
now i'm home and i'm goin CRAZY over Muse ... thanks to dee i downloaded this torrent including their EP's .... and Dead Star - In Your World is driving me crazy ...
SONG OF THE MOMENT: MUSE ~ FUTURISM

the aftermath

I logged on with the intention to write about something .... now i can't remember it anymore. Anywayz this post here is actually inspired by malak's comment on my last post.

See you were surprised i had a subject i could flunk again at hand and yet i was happy with my new pants ... well i have only one reply to you, it's a fair result of five years in a place like Handasa Ein Shams. which will make me talk more about my college experience.

Handasa rocks as a place, probably rocks too science and material-wise (as the matterial we take), despite the constant wondering you find yourself in on how the hell is that shit relevant to anything i'm ever gonna do in life?! and the funny part is .. most of the people teaching you there will tell u it's useless. which drives us to staff ... i can say that the only good staff people in this place that i've met can be counted on one hand's fingers. the rest have no job in the world except to do their time in the sections or lectures (well that's exactly how they feel and make us feel as well) like it's some sort of prison, and maybe yetalla3o 7abbet 7ekd tabaky 3aleeky bel marra... so (at least in my case) i never felt i was actually benefitting, and at the times when i finally found anything interesting it was accompanied by some companion of the staff whose only job was to make my life harder in liking it like it is in every masla7a 7okomeyya fel balad dy ... our usual routine of this is the most capable computer in the world, 7aneshra7loko mel manual ezzay yeshta3'al bass ma7addesh yelmesso 3ashan da 3ohda ... or to be more honest in handasa's case, u find the guy going in, vomiting the words out and not caring if u understand or not and then giving you a small paper with 'el mofeed' elly 7atetse2el feeh... it's like sanaweyya 3amma all over again ... only that this time u're divided between doctors and mo3edeen ... and in some cases both explain different things.

i always get the same grades despite how hard i study and how good i feel i did in the exams ... which i find really wierd. and the only year i passed without flunking any subjects was first year mechanical, which i gave away to join electrical from the start cause i was interested in computers, at least before they made sure i can't stand their guts.

anyhow, i just hope it gets better soon for those who're joining later, i heard that little private sector that just opened might be a catalyst to that.

out for now

<--- el shobbaak elly probably 7ante7er menno fel kolleyyya

BABA GAAB EL BANTALOOOON!!!!!!

he finally got it!!!! EL BANTALOON EL KAROHAAT :D
i'm late ... i'm gointo sleep and i have a terrible feeling that i'm gonna flunk this bitch again this year ... but EL BANTALOON GEH !!! and i'm wearing it ... its colours are awesome :D so i'm happy ...
nite

DODGE THIS SUCKER!!!!

i get that line from life every once in a while ... it's a constant reminder of my usual technique of getting past problems and hardships ... and it's the worst of them all, just to dodge. The problem with it is that it piles up. u dodge this and dodge that, run away from this and run away from that ... then one of them just strikes you in the nose!
like suddenly i discovered that i have an exam in 2 days, a subject that i hate (that's pro'lly why i flunked it last year) and seriously i can't study shit in this bitch! ... i went to study and stayed for hours there and didn't accomplish anything ... and now my test in 30 hours away ... and still i'm standing ... motionless ... feeling like an ostriche burying its head in the sand ... and i hate it ... and better still, i know it, and i've been there many times before, and i know i dread it after every single time, and still, with all these thoughts in my head i'm still doing it.
3azama 3ala 3azama!

BZ!

wow ... it never rains but it pours ... for a month now i've been trying to get a job and now i have a week's job plus 5 other offers!!! and no i'm not tryin to jinx myself ... it's just that in the middle of all this i still feel like i'm stressed out... first i was stressed cause i need a job .... now i am cause i don't know how to handle all this ....
anywayz check me out in Mobinil's booth in Cairo ICT from 4 till 7 feb ... Alo mobinil ... ta7t amrak ya fandem ;)
lol
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